Out of the many things that I wish Christy was here to see, this is the one thing that hurts the most. Although she would always say that Jim and I should have a baby, she was equally supportive of us waiting until we were ready. Well, we tried for awhile and finally it has happened for us. I am due January 11th 2008 and I can't help but think of the irony of being due in January. Looks like I will be having a boy and in my mind, when I thought of having a child in the future I always thought Christy would be there to give me advice, support and funny anecdotes. I always admired how she was able to constantly juggle motherhood, job, life, etc and she was just always meant to be a mother. I only now have memories of her with the girls and the things she would do with them. I always thought the "Half birthdays" were kinda neat and it was even the little things with hugging her girls and remembering to praise them to the day to day organization, feeding, bathing, etc.

When she was pregnant with Chelsea, it was before the days of 'being online' and so we didn't get to talk too much about her pregnancy then. But Jim and I came to see newborn Chelsea a little later on and seeing her and John as parents was great. They were so proud and attentive. And of course, she was 8 months+ preganant with Alyssa as my Matron of Honor, so I will always have those pictures and grateful that she was a good sport to endure a wedding at that time! I told her that having a pregnant Matron of Honor would someday help Jim and I with fertility ... so low and behold that is now true!

But it is bittersweet in many ways. I think of her now as my baby's guardian angel as he is probably going to breech and will need a little extra help coming into the world :-) I still miss you Christy and the mother that you were and will continue to be in our hearts.

K