Hey mom. I'm a senior in high school now.. I just had my last prom last weekend. I graduate on June 2, and then I'll be 19 years old on June 13th, I feel like a grown woman.. but you already knew that. To be completely honest, I don't have a ton of memories of you, just a few. A few is plenty, and it's definitely better than none. Through all these years (I think around 14 years now) your last words are what has kept me going ad piushing through hard times. And if anyone reads the stories on here anymore, I want YOU to know that my mom's, Christina Marie Hebert-Barnhart's, last words were, "Hold on, girls!" Yes I know, she said that because we were headed for an accident, but I now take those word to EVERYTHING and every challenge I go through, my momma's last thing she said was to "hold on" so that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to hold on, until things begin to get better, because there is always hope, and there is hope in the words "hold on" because there's always something greater beyond, if you just wait for a little while longer. And that's what gives me peace. So thank you mommy!

You know.. I feel like I'm the only one who goes on here anymore. I just come on and read some of the old stories from myself in the past, from your friends, and other family members. Tonight, I was having a rough night, as I've been getting closer and closer to graduation, the more I think about you. I'm getting excited for college (I'm attending Sonoma State in the Fall and will be double majoring in Philosophy and Economics) and I just wish you were here to be excited and enjoy these next parts on my life with me. I just know you'll be there when I walk across that stage to get my diploma.

Last time I wrote on here, I talked about boys and how "complex" they are.. yeah I just realized it's not that they are complex... they're literally just dumb. However, I met this awesome guy, Justin Thomas. Mom, you would love him. We've been dating for about 8 months now, and we've had a few rough patches (I wish I had your advice on some of those times) but he's just the sweetest guy. He believes in God, and his family has amazing moral values, he is such a gentleman, he treats me right, and I just love this boy. I just wish you could have met him, but I have all the faith in the world that you would have loved him. Like I said, tonight was a bit rough for me and I just started crying, and Justin stayed on the phone with me for 2 hours just listening to me cry and talking to me about God and his plan for me.

Oh, I go to a christian high school by the way. For a long time I was having quite a bit of trouble believing and having faith in God, but I feel like I just can't deny his existence any longer. I know that through this difficult and bumpy life I call mine, God has put me through trials to make me a better person and prove my own strength to myself. It's awesome knowing and having the comfort in knowing that he will never abandon me nor forsake me. It's an incredible feeling. Anyway I'm still in the proccess of figuring out that relationship, I can't wait to see what else God has in store for me. 

Well I'm out of things to say in this little thing, but I'm sure I'll think of something right after I hit 'Post' but I probably won't add it because I'm too lazy. Anywho, keep my house in heaven nice and clean 'til I get up there with you. I love you, Mom.

Goodnight.