OK Christy. It was four years ago yesterday that I learned the unbelievable news but, it's as clear as if it just happened. It's since been an incredible journey filled with loss, heartbreak, anger, tears and confusion as well as a journey with peaceful moments and leaps of faith that this is not the end. You know how much I love to write yet it's taken me all this time to post something on this wonderful site. Crazy, huh? Well Christy, I realize that what kept me from writing all this time is the same thing that is bringing me to do it now: motherhood. Motherhood is the reason I've had such a hard time with losing you. You were a young, active, caring, loving, vibrant mom. You and I shared most of our time together around being moms to our own great kids and sharing our hopes, dreams, fears and concerns for them. It bothers me more than anything that you were taken from the girls. I see your mom and my heart goes out to her. The ten year anniversary of my mom's passing is this March - on Jared's 9th birthday and the circle of life continues. I read Katie's wonderful mommy news and I excitedly wait as Patsy, too, expects her bundle of joy in a few months. My birthday is in a few days, the same day as your birthday in Heaven. (Did you arrange that so we'd not forget each other?) I am reminded that life is awesome and for you to have lived yours any other way, would not have been a "life" at all. I love you and miss you terribly. Rest in peace my friend :)